Post 5:.........after a while

It's been a very long period of time since i post something here.... a lots of thing happened this past a few month... and its really give me something meaningful bout how life can be so much significant if doing something extreme... and now i'm live with it..... i thing for sure right now, i am really miss my sons... Mohamad Irfan Hazeeq, Mohamad Imran Haykal and Mohamad Irsyad Helmi... forgive me my sons because i couldn't do anything within my ability to give you all as much love as a Father can give to their sons because of some obstacles and threat and the concrete reason is because your mother make this situation really complicated... but know this... i always pray..always ...always pray for your safety, happiness and someday i wish both of you can be a better person than me....... always pray that you all don't have the ugliest behavior like your mother's side family ugly attitude that can for sure ruined your life and hated by others (shamed on them...May Allah give them Hidayah and the pathway to realize their fault and mistake before they died).
.... Oh Allah... please help my helpless child... only You can give them the way to find the Ultimate Truth and only You ya Allah can save them and make them as a soleh child..... Amin

Really miss you all............ :(